Is this true?
If we live a short life believing in God, then we will die with this intact faith.
But if we live longer, experiencing more about life, its gifts, and its wonders as well as its injustice and suffering, then we may start doubting the interventions of God to the point of questioning his existence.
Is this the common path of human experience?
I have read several blogs written by people who describe that the faith they had most of their lives has changed or completely dissolved to the point of questioning the existence of God.
I made up the above quote based on a statement made by the character “Two Face” in the movie “The Dark Knight” where he actually says “You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become a villain.” I am not implying that being a believer is like being a hero, or that being an agnostic is equal to being a villain. However, being a believer is pretty much having a celestial hero, such as God, Jesus, Allah, etc, and being an agnostic is almost like perceiving religion or spirituality like a problem, a burden, or a “villain.” Being a believer is standing firm (or believing in standing firm) in a belief system or God, while being an agnostic is being unsure about any particular faith or the existence of God. Notice I did not use the term “Atheist” because I don’t really think anyone can accurately conclude, in their limited human mind, that there is absolutely no God.
But I am intrigued by so many different experiences people have in their spiritual journey. And I can relate to some of them. In my own personal experience, I always thought that what was taught in Sunday schools and religious services was the ultimate Truth. But after spending a few years away from the organized religious environment, I have given myself the liberty to question a lot of the doctrines that was deeply embedded in my heart.
I believe in God. I just don’t know all there is to know about God. I believe God is about mercy, compassion, forgiveness, service, unconditional care, and repentance. I believe God is about turning the other cheek, walking the extra mile, having a heart of a child, reaching out to those in need, and peacemaking. But I don’t know about the other claims that religious people make about God, such as God punishing the “sinner”, doing miracles, being a judge, sending angels to protect us, and other teachings which I consider “man made.”
And I wonder, will I have more and more doubts about God to the point of seeing myself become an Agnostic? Is this the typical human path towards “self realization”? Are we destined to question the existence of God if we live long enough?
Lee Strobel and CS Lewis would not say so. Their journeys were the opposite. They were atheists who saw themselves become believers. And not just believers, but famous authors who wrote apologetic books defending the Christian faith.
C.S. Lewis wrote:
“My argument against God was that the universe seemed so cruel and unjust. Just how had I got this idea of just and unjust? A man does not call a line crooked unless he has some idea of a straight line. What was I comparing this universe with when I called it unjust? … Thus in the very act of trying to prove that God did not exist—in other words, that the whole of reality was senseless—I found I was forced to assume that one part of reality—namely my idea of justice—was full of sense. Consequently atheism turns out to be too simple. If the whole universe has no meaning, we should never have found out that it has no meaning. (Mere Christianity, 45-46)”
Lee Strobel wrote : “It was the evidence from science and history that prompted me to abandon my atheism and become a Christian.”
Other examples of Atheists turning into believers are:
- Nicky Gumbel – Anglican priest known for the Alpha course, from atheism.[
- Peter Hitchens – Journalist who went from Trotskyism to Traditionalist conservatism, and estranged brother of late outspoken anti-theist and Vanity Fair writer Christopher Hitchens.
- C. E. M. Joad –English philosopher whose arguing against Christianity, from an agnostic perspective, earned him criticism from T. S. Eliot. He turned toward religion later, writing The Recovery of Belief a year before he died and returning to Christianity.
- Paul Jones – Musician, of Manfred Mann. Previously atheist and in 1967 he argued with Cliff Richard about religion on a TV show.
- Kang Kek Iew (also known as Comrade Duch) – Cambodian director of Phnom Penh‘s infamous Tuol Sleng detention center
- Akiane Kramarik (and family) – American poet and child prodigy raised as an atheist and converted to Christianity
- Chai Ling, Chinese student leader of the Tiananmen Square protests of 1989. Converted to evangelical Christianity in 2009.
- John Warwick Montgomery, Renowned Christian Apologist, Lutheran theologian, and barrister. As a philosophy major in college, he investigated the claims of Christianity “to preserve intellectual integrity” and converted. 
So, it is not always a one way street. Depending on personal human experiences, we can decide to question the existence of a supernatural deity, or embrace a more profound and firm belief system.