I am deciding to let go. Still waiting to be enlightened. Proclaiming harmony and pacifism. The here and now of today is all I have.
While doing yoga (which I have been wanting to do for a while), what came to my mind were these three words: patience… peace… presence. Patience to be able to wait for Heaven to come to me. Peace in order to maintain solemnity and thus clarity in my mind. Presence to be able to remain in the here and now, which brings me closer to Truth, to Heaven, to God. Presence can be reached only by separating from the worries about the future and regrets about the past, which is peace. Peace can be experienced by maintaining hope and waiting, which is patience. I know this is an idealistic and transcendent description, so let me use a more practical, everyday scenario.
I am currently on vacation until New Years Day. I may dedicate this time to choose to complain about every little unfortunate thing that happens to me (lost keys, dirty dishes, wife’s surgical knee, sick kids, etc.) or I may take a deep breath, embrace the suffering, and claim patience. I can choose to fight every battle with my kids, complain about the weather, criticize others, or I can claim peace and trust that life may continue and appreciate it the best way I can. I can dedicate this time to continue to worry about when work starts again, paying the bills, my family’s issues, and other life’s worries and regrets, or I can decide to give it away and focus on what is happening right now. I may choose to be bitter, or I may decide to be joyful.
I cannot reach Heaven. Heaven will come to me. So my next step will be to wait. I will dedicate these few days to meditate, reflect, pray, and take a lot of deep breaths. I will try to connect more with nature, slow down, and embrace others more. I must be more inclusive, flexible, and tolerant. The patience that I must have will be better than trying to expedite the Kingdom of Heaven to be manifested with my own strengths. The peace that I need to have is different from the peace that this world thinks it can provide. The presence I am hoping for is the unifying experience with the here and now, the everlasting God.
In order to live the Kingdom of Heaven, I think I have to have patience, experience peace, and be Present with God.
I thank my fellow blogging friends for giving me inspiration and advice on my spiritual journey. You know who you are. God bless.