Life is difficult. The Life that Jesus taught is even more difficult. He taught about how to live the Kingdom of Heaven and its rewards (Mathew 5:1-12), but it is an uphill battle.
Let me share something that serves as an example. Yesterday was a rough day at work. I felt I was about to lose control. I prayed this morning about God leading me, and giving me strength. But instead I encountered a hectic day. I haven’t prayed as much as I have before. And I believe (or want to believe) that God is putting me in difficult situations so that I can “hit rock bottom” and reach out to Him. Well that is exactly what happened yesterday. I cried out to Jesus like I haven’t done in a while. Whether or not this will work out, I am not sure, but I was in a state of desperation. Am I going to reach out to God only when I am in a crisis or desperation? I have even almost forgotten to practice daily what I believe is the reason for being: Living the Kingdom of Heaven. Although this mainly entails serving the poor and loving others as I love myself, I am not able to do this if I don’t first humble myself, forgive others, be honest, stop worrying about material things, etc. And, since I don’t learn the easy way, I guess I will have to learn the hard way. So last night I cried like a baby, pleading God to give me strength. I was praying like this because out of coincidence (or a message sent to God) I was listening to the radio on my way back from work and noticed the song “Make you Stronger” my Madissa. Was this a reminder from the Almighty about my current situation? Am I supposed to be stronger after all of this tribulation? Well, that is my hope, since I don’t think I can withstand this unless I am actually gaining some strength.
The life that Jesus taught, I mentioned at the beginning of this post, is even more difficult. I believe so because he taught some outrageous things that we must do to live the Kingdom of Heaven. Hatred is equal to murder and prefers forgiving each other than sacrifice (Mathew 5:21-22). Lust is the same as adultery (Mathew 5:27). To swear is evil (Matthew 5:37). We should love our enemies (Ouch!) so that we can be like God (Mathew 5:38-45). How can we possibly love those who hate us? Who can possibly do such a thing? And also we are supposed to turn the other cheek, walk the extra mile, and forgive 70 x 7. This sounds more difficult that what I am going through now. So then, how can I experience the things that Jesus taught us to practice, if I cannot bare what I am living right now?
What I am trying to get at is that I have tried to know God with my own strengths. I admit it. And what I have learned lately is that I need to slow down and don’t worry so much about doing the right thing. Having these difficult situations have helped me to realize this. I need to wait (although I don’t want to) and allow these situations to humble me even more, because otherwise I am not going to be able to live the Kingdom of Heaven.
Please enjoy the music video that follows which has the lyrics of Madissa’s song “Make you Stronger”. It brought tears to my eyes because it speaks exactly about what I have gone through. It has been an inspiration.