Life Stinks (Sometimes)

Worries try to invade my head. Concerns about my job, the house, and the bills. I have thoughts about my extended family. I focus so much about my own affairs that I think nobody else could be having the same problems. I limit myself to only my personal dilemmas, that I forget about others’ lives. I get obsessed with my private thoughts. Then, all of a sudden, I hear a bad news about my wife’s friend who may have a terminal illness. My personal affairs, worries, and concerns suddenly become meaningless.

Then I start questioning all of this life.  It reminds me of my own mortality. It reminds me of the fact that my life could also end.  I think about all the things that I struggle for, my ambitions, and my goals can vanish any moment.  Money does not mean anything anymore.  It seems that, the only thing that counts is our health.  Life can be so fragile sometimes, that I am tempted to think that it truly “stinks”.

But what am I to do?  No wonder we tend to rely on the hope that there is an after life.  But in the mean time, what do we do?  Those who suffer because of terminal illness, like my wife’s friend, need us to simply be present.  And then what?  There is nothing to say to alleviate the physical and emotional pain.  How can you talk to someone about Jesus, God, or simply give them some hope when they just got diagnosed with a devastating illness?  “Hey, Jesus loves you”?. “don’t worry, God is going to take care of you”?  I am reminded of Job in the Bible, who remained faithful to God in spite of losing almost everything.  Can we do the same in today’s world?

I guess this is a test.  A big test to see how we would react to a difficult circumstance.  To see how much love we can still provide in spite of the loses.  Because it is no longer about our individual affairs, but about each other.


About Noel

I am a person who has realized that this existence is an opportunity to engage in the genuine care and service of others. I have evolved from fundamentalism to a moderate spiritual approach. I am an introvert, an artist, and a a reflecting person who has grown to not fear doubt but to embrace it as a means to growth and increasing closeness to the fullness of life. View all posts by Noel

5 responses to “Life Stinks (Sometimes)

  • Carol Ann Hoel

    I don’t know if it’s a test, but the Christ-like thing to do is what you described: Set aside your own interests to provide comfort to the afflicted. All the injustices, inequalities, and disasters will someday be history. Yes, we have this to look forward to, but here an now we must be His hands and feet to our brothers and sisters. We get by ourselves one day at a time, looking to Jesus for our strength and sustenance. Blessings to you, Noel…

  • livingvictoriously

    I hope your friend does well. Hugs.

  • Cindy Holman

    Yes I think life is full of little “tests” and how we manage through life – is the point of the test. I’m not sure I like it – and I’m not sure I have any answers – only more questions for things that happen – such as betrayal from a friend, hurt and isolation – illness and sadness – death and brokenness. But I do know that when I keep my head up when it would be so easy to drown – I feel an indescribable presence in my life, helping me sort it all out and loving me with such a fierce love – that won’t let me go.

  • pbus1

    Hi Noel,

    You always write very thought-provoking posts. You cause readers to pause, to step back from their lives, and to look in with a fresh set of ideas, and to see things from a different perspective! Sometimes we get so caught up in our own lives, that it takes something devastating, to cause us to take our focus off of ourselves. There comes a time when we must put ourselves last, and put others first, to allow God to work through us, to help someone in their times of sickness, despair, and utter devastation. During those times, will we choose to be like the Samaritan, the Priest, or the Levite, in the parable of the Good Samaritan? (Luke 10:25-37) It’s not about us. It is all about God!


  • tarotworldtour

    There is an interesting paradox with the technology and stresses of today. They are created by malevolent forces in order to stymie our development, but at the same time, they acceleration our connection to each other, the exchange of information, and reaching our goals as a soul. All will be well.

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