This is a post I wrote two years ago in my journal before using WordPress. I wanted to share with my readers. Here it goes.
Does God want us all to be healed? And the popular answer is yes. However, we all know that does not always happen no matter how much we pray for it. My own experience proves it. So the answer that I have is, since God, by definition, knows everything, more than what I can comprehend (this is the most understanding I have about God), then the reason for the suffering, including sickness, must have a greater purpose than my physical limited mind can comprehend. It is merely accepting that God knows what He is doing. Is this easy to do? Of course not! I have suffered to accept the fact that my physically impaired brother was born that way and has not healed even after decades of devotional prayer for his healing. But God knows why He has not allowed the healing to happen, even if we desire it so much. If I don’t believe this, it is because I have not come to accept the fact that God knows more than I know, understands better than I can (He has the greatest understanding) and has a purpose for the suffering. I doubt, question, and even start believing that God does not exist simply because my arrogant and rebellious nature does not allow me to accept that God knows all. If I doubt God, if I question his existence, it is simply because I have put conditions for God, in other words, I have demanded God to act the way I would, and if He does not meet my standards, then He must not exist. This is more arrogant than to believe that Jesus is the only way to God. Can I question God when I feel like it? Sure you can. Job and King David did. We are humans, and we should also allow ourselves to be angry at God for our misunderstanding, like a child cries and throws a tantrum when he is not allowed to cross the road without looking both ways. Like a better knowing parent, God knows why he does not allow the healing. If I were God, I would certainly do a lot of things different, but I am not Him. And I believe that if I would have his knowledge, I would do exactly what He is doing, no matter how less knowing beings, like humans, would protest. Think about it.