I learned about you since childhood
You were always part of my daily life
I trusted what the church said about you
When I grew older, I began to doubt,
the questions were overwhelming.
too many for me to ignore.
But as time passed, I evolved from being religious
to being more compassionate,
just the way You taught us to be.
It was almost as if naturally I became
saved without the superficial effort of having to
believe specific doctrines nor do selfish
rituals, but emptied myself from
including the self-righteousness
that comes from regularly attending the right church
and trying to convert others to my doctrine.
I feel I am truly farthest away from You
than originally wanted to believe, and
because of this, I am actually leaning towards You.
I trust that You understand me, even if
man may judge these lines as contradictory.
But reality is that, getting to know you
takes irony, and a little bit of paradox
because You don’t make much sense
but are more attractive than what man can ever offer.
Letting go of my own agenda opened my eyes to your true Gospel
Accepting the differences of others helped me to see them through Your eyes. It was like being cured from a spiritual blindness.
Being a Christian does not require following other Christians.
It is enough to follow Your example. It is safe to be saved through growth, not a single event.
It is pleasing to You to serve others, even if they deny you. I continue to grow and evolve, and become more like You.
I look forward to seeing You the day that I cease to grow and You decide to reveal Yourself completely to me. When that day comes, You will no longer be the Mysterious God,
but the fully revealed God.
But in the mean time, I gradually keep searching for more of You. Amen.